Friday, December 18, 2009
HOLY CROW !! hell hell hell ! damn hell on earth ! why why why ??! Aj's right , of all the dates .. why CHRISTMAS EVE liao ??! I really hate this . when I'm going for the annual christmas gathering at my grandma's hse [on my dad's side obviously cuz they're all christians, mostly] . they're gonna be like "mcm mna lha result kw ? ok lha ? spa suru kw xbljr btl2" .. aihhh .. shit ow . damn it ! i'd really do NOT want to see their faces with the serves-u-right or ur-so-lazy looks . and if i get the expression of dissapointment what lha knun i will do .. surely cutting my wrist soon after that or drown myself in the bath tub . again shit ow .. my face is gonna be so fucked up bitter when all the relatives phone my mom just to know what I got 'cause it's so important . the part that I hate the most is they'll be thinking "i thought she's one of the smart kid" or "knpa bgtu rndh?" .. the bar is raised so high on me since my UPSR result was really good . and the devastating look on my parents' face not to mention .. i couldn't bear them all so pls help me God .. they're going to be so angry at me since i .. well .. didn't study as hard as possible till my brain explodes & my ass cramps . why why why ?! the last thing I want is for ppl nosing up my business .. pls don't mind me . The worst part for sure is of course, the old comparison thingy . i'll be compared to ALL of my cousins who are older than me . the sentences "kw tgk bh cousins kw yg len, pndai .. bkn mcm kw" would probably come out from my parents' mouth . i hate to hear that . I mean c'mon .. i'm the one with the fucking results .. i should be more dissapointed than them . i'm way more depressed than they are about MY results . emphasizing MYMYMY results . I just hope that i get the results good enough so that everyone just shut the hell up about my life & move on with their lives . I hope that i can sleep all the way through December & wakes up when PMR result is yesterday's news & gossips . I am very much depressed right now . so I'm going to bang my head with my fist till i'm asleep . later ~ oh yeah .. i almost forgot .. Hye =)
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