Thoughts In My Mind

feeling stupid cuz i just failed add maths & physics ..

Sunday, April 18, 2010

low blood sugar .

Hey . Ok .. seriously . I need to explain something .. I posted something crappy earlier today & now I feel like an ass . The post entitled 'I don't know what love is' is totally unusual for me to write about .. HAHAHHA .. Ok , I was having a low blood sugar at the moment because I hadn't eat sugary products more than 24 hours . It made my head a little woozy & u could pretty much say I was being a straight-forward lunatic . LOL . But it's not a lie . I don't lie about things like that . But still, I feel like an ass . Hahahaha . Anyway , I've just spend hours baking a cake just now .. I tasted it . Not so bad . Not that good either though . I put too much flour resulting it to taste like an incy wincy bit of flour . So it's kind of distasteful . I'm not really good in baking but I love doing it . I think I can bake cookies better than cakes . However, I think I did a pretty good job on the frosting though [I think] . A mixture of icing sugar, Chocolate 'emulco' & cocoa powder . Plus, I did add just the right amount of castor sugar into the mixture of cake . I learned to bake patisseries from the show on channel 707 called 'Rachel Allen Bake !' and channel 703 which is the AFC channel . Apart from that, I've written new lyrics this evening . Not just lyrics , but it's a complete song ! It has been a LONG time since I can come up with a melody to go along with the lyrics I've written so far . Better yet, I remember the melody .. I always forget but this time I didn't . Thank you memory .. ! It's an icky yucky lame love song really . I was fantasizing about something that doesn't exist .. but when inspiration hits , u can't just let it go away .. such a waste if u do that .. I couldn't find any papers or pen so I used a brown envelope & a black colour pencil. LOL . So I guess , that's it for today .. I have nothing else to say . In addition, I am sleepy so it would be better if I sleep now so I could wake up early tomorrow . Loads of assignments to finish . UGH . UGH . UGH . Goodnight ![or good morning] =)

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I don't know what love is .

What is love ? I'm talking about love for the special one in our lives ? Can anyone tell what does it mean without looking up a dictionary ? Define Love to me .. In what form does it exist .. what does it feel like .. But most importantly , how can you know it will stay forever and won't leave you hanging like a picture on the wall in the end ? An optimist person would say that it's the most significant piece of the heart and that you would never survive without it . But as for the pessimist, they will tell you that love's a surreal fantasy created by the minds of people as an escape from the realistic world and that love is a waste of time. Could I judge these two different personalities of human based on what they say about love ? I don't know .. But do u want to know what I think ? Love is something that I am scared of .. or maybe I'm even terrified .. why ? I don't have love experiences to match with the words I speak of love .. so I really don't know .. All that I know is , I'm secretly terrified to let anyone in. Inside my heart.. Let's call it , .. insecurity .. I'm quick to think of the worst but I think I'm inevitably sure about one thing . That love fades as time flies , thus , it leaves u in the end feeling lonely and sorrow creeps into u like a ghost possesses a little girl . Call me a non-believer , I'll just sigh . I've seen so many people die of love, cry because of love .. I'm not one of those people . I never really had the chance to be in love .. I have no experience to be exact . I had a couple of boyfriends in the past but they were not love . I wasn't in love .. I was just experimenting although I didn't realize it back then because I was too young. I am young , still.. but I know better now . I learned from other people . You know, when two people are in love, they would always say to each other things like 'I can't live without you' , 'You're the only person that I want to spend the rest of my life with' and all but isn't it funny that when those two people break up, they would just simply move on with their lives .. They still can live without each other although the process of grieving and forgetting each other was difficult , they manage to move on . They'll find someone new . So .. the words that they tell each other , are they lies ? . Seems to me that those people aren't really in love with each other as they think they are . What's the deal with love ? Why must we find someone we would share our lives with ? Can't we just be alone and feel perfectly fine and happy without love ? Why should women have husbands and men have wives ? I couldn't tell u why because I don't know . But who am I to say that we don't need love too right ? So I am sort of in both ways .. I am an optimist but I am also a pessimist in love . Secretly, I want to be in love but my pessimist side keeps me from letting people in . I guess I have this whole dark and huge ego . And I am waiting for that one person to break it . To teach me to build bridges instead of walls . Make me love the sun more than I love the rain . What I'm trying to say is .. people have their own views and rights .. People have minds and hearts . So whatever thoughts we have about love , they would all change when we find someone that we could honestly be in love with . But ask ourselves when we find the one, 'would this person loves me for me? Not for the way I look and what I have and accept my countless flaws ?' .. Being in love with someone means that u are able to get through the thick and thin with the same person everytime. To wake up and still have the same feeling towards the very same person . Well that's my point of view . That's the way I honestly think of love . As for now, I'm just a young girl living life as it is with a camouflage to hide my love ego. Lastly, all that I can say is, I really don't know what love is . =)

Sunday, March 14, 2010

cnt wait for Eclipse !!

Hey there .. so i came across the trailer of Eclipse & was like "mm .. blog it" , so im blogging about it cuz i really love the Twilight saga .. the books r far more detailed & i enjoy them better .. but still, there r movies about them .. LOL . lovelovelove 'em anyway .. i'll post the url cuz i honestly don't know how to upload the vid here ..

Eclipse trailer : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oJ3PbHyWbj0

ANYWAY ...... i decided to read the comments cuz sometimes u'll find really hilarious comments ppl put to give opinions .. n yeah . i've found one ! it was so funny tht i laughed hysterically !! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! guess this comment is by a Twilight hater .. even though i love the Saga very much , i didn't find the comment insulting or anything .. just funny !
straight down hilarious !! im not mad, after all , it's her/his opinion .. hahahaha !
i'll paste it down .. don't worry .. so u cud read it ..

The Comment:
"I thought soap operas were bad, until I watched the second movie. I don't love you, I love you, I can't be here, I can be here, I'm coming back, I'm going to kill myself... Holy shit, it just drags on forever in repetition. That Bella chick would f**k anything that isn't human and Edward acts like he has daily pms. This is by far the most amatueristic writing I've ever seen. This is what happens when a woman writes about something that was imagined by a man. Saturated romance."

p/s: funny right ? BUT .. i DON'T find people who insults Taylor Swift funny .. I don't understand why ppl hate her .. she makes mistakes .. so do all of us .. don't judge her wrongly kay .. that's all . hahahaha . tataa ~ lovelovelove -D-

LOL . random ..

Hey peeps . Im not really sure what I'm gonna write cuz im feeling sooo uninspired thanks to my suckish life .. well .. I guess im gonna do what Aj always do .. writing random things that go through my mind .. this is , my 1st attempt ..

1] watching an old Malay movie .. i wonder why one of the actor's hair is so noticeably greasy even though it's a black&white movie .. stuff like tht shouldn't happen . grossness much ~

2] one of my cat is paralyzed .. mybe a nerve disease .. my dad & i wanted to tke it to the vet but it's sunday .. poor Gray ..

3] my bro is excercising 24/7 now since my relatives r starting to notice tht he's fat .. i hope he'll be fatter than me so no one wud care about how fat i am .. i remember one tym , he compared his so-called "six packs" to my 6 yrs old brother & said, "naa comel[me] ... ramping lg sy dri c ifan" .. i was like [in my head] , "wtf r u saying" .. gosh .. my 11 yrs old kayu balak brother actually compared his weight to my stickman younger brother .. LOL

4] i haven't bath yet .. it's almost 2pm ..

5] i did my best to clean the hse .. my brothers had just ruined my effort .. so i gve up .. they're such dirty little monsters .. boys .. ugh ! i'll nvr marry & hv boys ..

6] lots of homeworks & assignments .. doing it starting tonight ..

7] i wnt to go to my cuzy eqa's hse so we cud hang out .. but nobody's home to drive me there .. we hadn't hang out for 3 weeks ! crazy !!!

8] i started to play the guitar but still a newbie .. my fingers r hurting badly but ellisa said it's normal .. i got used to the C,G,Em,Am,F chords though there are more chords i hv to learn .. switching fingers position is my stupid problem now ..

9] i wnt to shower ..

10] i feel icky .. eew ..

11] mysteriously, the numbers 11 & 13 r VERY coincidental to me .. I don't know y .. but i wna know y !

i guess tht's all i cud think of right now .. i wna tke a shower now . catch u later ~

Friday, March 12, 2010

another funny essay ! =D

Hey peeps ..
So I've read this essay by an elementary student
in Pittsburgh . It was written in the spring of 2004 ~
plus, I found out about it from Ingrid Michaelson's Tumblr[a blog web]

p/s: & no I didn't spell 'Tumblr' wrong . [I think *wink*]


[from IM's blog]

This essay was written by an 8th grader in Pittsburgh in the spring of
2004. The assignment was to pick an enangered species, and explain why
it's important to save it. The typos and formatting are preserved from
the original.

Richard XXXXXXXX Draft 2

I shouldn't do shit. I don't care about them they all
could die and it won't affect my life. I know a lot about them
but I don't need to think about them. They're just a waste of
time koalas are stupid they don't help me with shit so why
should I help them. If they all die there will be more room for
the panthers and all the other hard animals. Koalas are weak a
pit will get rid of their whole fucking family. That's why I
don't like koalas.
Koalas have sharp claws but they are weak. They all small
and fat and they be climing trees. I hope a storm just come
while theyjust chilling up in the tree thinking they is hard and
they're will all just fall off. They just break they neck and
shit. When they fall they claws are going to fall off and they
going to be crying like some little bitches.
Koalas aren't hard they some little bitches. They start
climbing up the tree soon as they see a deer from like 50feet
away. They stupid as hell they should put their brain in their
pouch and put the kid in they ten they're be able to think
better. They try to be in the fucking kangaroo family. They weak
as hell, talking bout they got a pouch a kangaroo so they their
cousins and shit. Kangaroo's have some big ass legs and whot do
a koala got? Some little ass legs, they tails is little and weak
as fuck kangaroo's got a big ass long tail that can kill a
fucking koala.
If a koala goes in the water it won't be able to breathe
with its little short ass. It'd fucking drown soon aas it take
one step into the water. While they at the river trying to get
something to drink a bear could just come to him and snatch its
ass up. It doesn't know protection because they don't have
protection. What they little ass going to do? It can't scratch
him. The bear will beat his fucking ass.
The important think about koalas is that just don't care
about tem and let them die by all the other animals in
Australia. They're not important just let nature do what it do
and kill them. Koalas do not have a place in this world there's
not enough room for all the bitches in this world. So let all
the koalas that's in the zoos and shit. Let them go and put them
back with their family. If you let them all go they won't
nothing except for that's what they was put in this world for.
Now you know why koalas aren't important. They have
nothing to do except for sitting around in the trees. It's like
they just was like they was sent have to die. Koalas don't do
nothing to help anybody. Thre would be just one more relative of
the kangaroo that will be six feet under. Now you know why
koalas are not important because there are dumb.

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